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Grace under Fire

on March 29, 2013

“Grace under Fire” I’ve heard this saying during my life about a million times. without really understanding the true meaning of these words. I finally got it!

When under extreme stress, when everything is looking its bleakest, a ray of Light shines in and changes everything. Perception, the very way of looking at a situation moves 180 degrees. The angle has changed, the light is different, and it can be seen clearly. The fog has been lifted and sometimes that fog is dense. Dense can definitely be where I am!

I get caught up in the craziness of my life. Right now, buying a house and selling the house I grew up in. Moving, not just moving down the road but waaaay down the road, 300 miles give or take. My son is also moving and getting married in May. Yiks!!! No wonder things are foggy!  I’m surprised I can see anything at all .  There are so many emotions swirling around in that fiery fog that have left me

Fog

Fog (Photo credit: Moyan_Brenn)

less than who I need to be. Yeah, I haven’t been easy to deal with!!

But Today, a ray of light has entered that fiery fog and shown me a different perspective.Selling my childhood home is not an easy thing. The emotional baggage that comes with ending this part of my life has been a rollercoaster ride of calm and total freak out. As much as we humans don’t like change, we can’t hold onto what has gone in the past. We have to let go of it. Our childhoods need to stay where they are supposed to be, we can’t bring them with us into the next phase in our lives. We need to let it go. That includes the bad stuff, not just the good. We need to face it, deal with it, and all the lessons that come with it, and move on. How can we truly move on without dealing with what has been. The lessons from our childhood need to be learned. We need that knowledge before we embark into the next phase. We can’t avoid them, we’ll be stuck. Unable to move on. They will keep coming up until we’ve learned it. Ever notice that, The same situation keeps happening again and again. It’ll keep happening till the fog lifts and the light shines in. Better to deal with it or change how we dealt with it the last time than to push it aside. Avoidance, not a good thing. It’s better to say ” lesson learned” OK I get it. than have to keep repeating the same lessons over and over, but we’re human, and very dense matter.  Some people need more than a ray of light, they need a cast iron frying pan to hit them in the head. Dense, very dense.

So, no more avoiding things I don’t want to deal with. I’m going to stick it out, do the right thing, live with my heart wide open and  embrace every situation as it comes and not avoid what needs to be dealt with. Live Life head on. It’s time to move on into the next part of my life without the baggage of my childhood, just the lessons learned. I’ll need them for my new Life. This is: Grace under Fire.

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